Wednesday, May 23, 2007
11:07 PM
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So tired.... Kept dozing off in class today. Since 20mins into lecture this morning at 9am. I dun used to do tt. I gt to do smth to myself... I dun wan to keep dozing off. Somehow, Time passes so quickly & nearly 11 weeks of Uni had gone passed.
Exams coming... I'm been slackin & lack of motivation since the Mid-sem tests were over. I cant afford to do so. Nearly a sem will be over. I still dont regret changin my course. ChemEng may be alot busier, but I still like it better than Chem. I know I would score better too.
Gerald... I've been feeling so much strain in Uni, I dont need another problem for him to add on. I duno if I can considered myself feeling stress or stressing myself.. But I feel so drained. Feel like if more negative things stacks higher onto this current pile, I would explode. I was so tired after Uni today.. for wadever reason, he called. Aft our quarrel last nite. I didnt have much respond to him. Why? Coz I was slping!! I dont even quite rem wad was said. Soon aft the conver, he sent an sms.. smth abt knowin we cant last. Saying that he has made an effort in calling me yet.. my dead respond or smth?? I dont rem.. I dragged my eyes open n hands to move to call him.. gt no respond from it. Nth.
I'm lack of motivation. Nth accomplished yet feeling so tired. STOP IT!
Bad things happen while back hm after a lonnggg day of Uni. Hadi borrow my thumbdrive to copy the BBQ pics into his comp. When I came hm & wan to use it, I realised it was infected with "Torjan Horse". He is an asshole! I alrdy cant stand the way he handle his personal problems. He just need to add on to make me more frustrated with his doings??
I told him abt it. Respond:
Hadi: "Sorry lo. U shld update ur virus scan la."
Eve: "Den wad abt urself??" (What I intended to say is "look who's toking?!")
Hadi: "No leh, my comp is ok. nth wrong"
Eve: "So where tt horse come from?"
Hadi: "Duno leh."
LOOK!! How insincere ans.
Next.. while Cal send me home, she told me Shayne(the landlord) talked to her abt the electricity bills going up too much. Cal explained tt it's Aaron. Coz since.. when Nick was here, the bill was fine. Shayne ignore her, as usual, & exclaimed tt Nick was usually not hm. Thus, the bill was fine. He insist we on our heater day & nite & even showed an article on "Heater drying skin". When I heard it, I can understd Cal's frustrations too. Coz China Old Man, NEVER listens. I know Aaron leaves the fan running continously when he was out of the hse too! Guess this shld explains smth?
If I cant settle my sch work now, I dont need xtra problems. Pls. I cant even say Give Me a Break. Coz in the 1st place, Have I even done anything much?? Uni can only be my only problem now... aft tt, den I could settle any others.
PS: my ceiling.. has gt mouse?? Heard them scrambling thru for a few weeks now. Saw tt lil 1 in the kitchen juz now. But cant b found. It's... pretty cute thou. =)
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