Monday, June 26, 2006
11:27 AM
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I'm home at last~~! After waiting for so long to be home in Singapore... i'm hm now.. safe n sound.
I had 3 more exam papers from 20th to 22rd June. The 20th 1.. was pretty bad. 21st was fine enough. 22nd.. I'm not sure. But I hope I do score. Once the exams r over... me & Cal went ard the city, Universal fish market n Carousel to get all the last min stuff. Things parents ask us to get to bring back to Sg.
Been a fast passing last 2 days in Perth thou.. as compared to the days during exams. And timo.. my ex neighbour who migrated there, sent us to the airport. When I left the hse whic I'm staying currently in Perth, I duno y... I somehow feel tt Shayne (the landlord) is happy. Hahz! Oh yah... Me & Cal's overall luggauge weighs 71kg! haha... Overloaded by ard 21kg. But tt guy at the counter who checked our luggauges in didnt say anything.. So it was ok. We juz smiled & walk away.. pretendin we knew nothing. hehz. But when Gerald went back tt time, His was overloaded by ard 15kh I think. And the lady made him pay $100+ for the overweight. So mean...
Had dinner home during the 1st nite. Small Uncle n his wife came.. and there's Xiaoying n Andy. All came to have dinner together. It was nice thou. Den.. using xiaoying n ant as excuse, I left the hse to meet Gerald. Hee. I'm always doing tt. I guess I gt no choice too. Coz it's so hard to let my parents know. I'll prob continue hiding this truth till.. after Uni if possible.
Now... 1st day in Sg! Going to eat sushi!! I miss it so much. hee. Going to see Orchard Rd again.. after the 4mths away. Not too long tt I've been away actually.
It feels so good to b home. So many ppl I love here. I like Perth still... but I dun have much close ppl there. So Singapore.. is still where I love most. I havent been missing Perth. =)
you make my life perfect-`
Thursday, June 15, 2006
10:12 AM
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It's the soccer fever now.. been staying up late & watched soccer matches thru my TV here with Gerald.. He watches thru the webcam. Haha. But I still do wake up per normal... hoping to study soon.
But this morning, smth made me stick on to the internet again. I received an email from my ex-Guzheng instructor/conductor. Thum Soon Boon. They'll be having the 100 Guzheng Grandioso 2006 in Botanic Gardens this Sunday. This is the 2nd time 100 Guzhengs come in together again. The 1st was in 2000.. when I had a share of 1 of the 100 people. If anybody could have seen, it was really grand. I was performing.. so I didnt exactly viewed the whole thing until I saw the video. The stage was so big.. surrounded by a pond with Lotus flowers on them. My parents came.. Xiaoying (my cousin in the same Guzheng tuan as me) parents came.. All the audience were sitting on the grass patch in front of us. Tt feeling.. was so good. Whenever I play the Guzheng, I think of nth but the scores & music I'm playing. I love it.
Yeah.. but to the email.. i read it. He was asking the ex-Guzheng ppl to go n watch it. So we can have a gathering too. I so much wan to go... But cant. Y cant it be 1 more week later?! Argghh.. by the time the start, I would have alrdy touched Sg.
I love my Guzheng so much.. But I hardly touch it anymore. Why? Cause I love playing in a grp.. our every performance was in a grp. Tt's when the music comes alive.. the different grps the whole Guzheng grp was spilt, were playing different parts of the song. It's only when we come together, tt the song is complete. When I play alone, there'll be so much lesser melody in it. During tt time, I was usually playing the rythem part. Sigh... I wish I could play better. Learn my own scores. How I miss those days... the grp, the performances & the Guzheng practises. There were tough.. But it's smth so memoriable.
While typing this blog.. the music plays along. This is a vid is from a link my instructor paste with the email. He's actually the President of a Guzheng association in Singapore. Blue-ocean Guzheng Association. The 1st in Sg. Wooo.. I'm so proud of him! But this guy... damn fierce. He can scold till u cry 1.. my friend did. Scary! B4 our practises, we'll always ask "wad is the weather forecast today?". Tt's when we decides on the behavoiur we can show to him. Hahz!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6i_BCegIYY%20
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEbR_ud-Wjo&mode=related&search=
From wad I read on their webpg, they are actually performing at a temple. I like the 2nd song better. Thou I duno how to play them both. Heh. Coz nv learnt them during those 4 yrs of Guzheng. But heard b4..
Watch it. Enjoy!
you make my life perfect-`
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
4:10 PM
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Hmmm.... Know wad? This morning, I saw her blog again. Now reading it, smth new, the guy not Gerald. Heh. She describes his dress sense n all.. so far in the last 2 blogs. This time round, not Gerald kind of dressing. He's been hm all day.. we on webcam thru out. But "they"'ve been out... whic means... it clears his name!! He didnt lie afterall. I'm happy.
But then again... looking back at her blog, they dun actually meant for Gerald. And looking back at the date, Oh... she had a bf when she n him went out tt particular day.. n cheated on me. Whic means... I wasnt the only 1 being cheated tt day. Her.. bf too. Wooo... she is so prone to cheating! My gosh. A fetish is tt? Or juz in need of xtra attention?
And... not only Me & tt bf was cheated, my tt Him was cheated too. He believed her.. again... n again... she lied. Is this a triangle or a square now??
Never to mention her again. If she conveniently wans this Him back again due to lack of attention fr other boys, n this Him can sillily go back again... byebye. But from now till then... till forever... her name shall b avoided UNLESS... smth happens again. I probably do sound harsh... Like this guy's not worth it or wad.. But I still wans Him.
O level picture explaining session.
This is a picture of my table. A table whic I spend most time on. The whole day juz sit by the table & computer.
On the left hand side of the picture, It is a tiny clock whic shows the time 4.02pm (Perth). There is also a yellow walkie-talkie. It is actually a gift from Dominic (Calynn exxon-mobil colleague, also her Godfather) to Calynn. Very cute lil thing we used initially to find each other in the Uni compound. But this lil thing takes up too much batt.. not worth it. So it is left there to collect dust. Just beside it, stands a table lamp whic emits orange light. Not too gd fr the eyes... so this time go back Sg, I'm goin to bring back the 1 Gerald bought for me earlier.
Below these 3 items, is my E600 Sumsung phone whic I love & been with me for 1.5 yrs.
Next, is my laptop from Toshiba. Has a blue top... nt very attractive thou. (oops... not suppose to add this. Only can explain wad u SEE in the pic). And as u can see, I am currently chatting with Shir on the msn. On top of it, U can c the webcam and just at the end of the laptop, u can c the microphone. And there's the mini optical mouse. At the top right corner of the table, there is the glass bottle. Whic used to contain "I Love U" ROC candy.. But all gone now coz Gerald ate them all up! Beside the mouse, U can c a tiny corner of a mug. Mum bought tt for me in Perth. It has a sheep on it.. with bubble words "... Baa".
Back to the bottom left of the table, where the yellow file is, contains my Physical Chemistry Notes. Smarties r thrown all on the file.. coz I prefer to eat them fr the table rather than fr the box. =)
At the bottom, middle of the table, a small pile of Physical Chemistry Notes lies... untouched YET. Studying shld b done soon.
This is the end of my explaination of my table. Over the time?
Hahz... I'm too bored la! Gerald's home. He looks happier now... I'm happy.
My picture description can b graded on the tag board.
Cheers! =D
you make my life perfect-`
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
11:28 PM
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Alrite... 2 papers gone alrdy. Left 3 more next week... Tues, Wed & Thurs. And.... (drum rolls) I'll b Home!! Sunday.. tt'll be.
The past 2 papers isnt tt bad.. nt as scary as I thought it would be. But I made a stupid mistake on today's paper! Higher ionic charge, more acidity!! I wrote the other way round. Damn!! waste 5 marks... v waste lor... coz i knew how to do it. Damn! I juz gt confused... n conveniently forgotten abt it. Argghhh... Gek.. damn gekk..
Tues pp... I scared. The super lots of calculations kind. This pp.. super bad for mid-sem test. *prays*
Hmmm..... I've been controlling not to confront him. Sumhow, I saw smth... whic may give me 'evidence' tt they're not over. But I wasnt very sure if tt thing I saw.. refers to my tt same Him. But he's been treating me well... like everything's normal. Dun seem like he lied.. hopefully he didnt. Kinda told Cal abt it... she made me feel tt it was stupid of me to think abt it. Her respond.. "So??" -_-"
What?? Am I nt suppose to be bothered abt it at all?? At this time.. yah, NO, not suppose to b bothered with it (coz Exams). But he's my bf rite... I will care! She's the man. She dun really bother abt rship stuff.. but I'm nt her. Sigh.. whatever.
CANT WAIT to be in Singapore soon!
you make my life perfect-`
Thursday, June 08, 2006
8:33 PM
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On wed nite... I recieved a msn request from cute_applez@hotmail.com.
Telling me "he/she" is Kenny fr tp elect engineering. Asking if I'm attached n stuff.. n if "he/she" gt chance". It's stupid rite.. if Ur name is kenny.. n ur email.. cute apple? How girly!
Wadever it is.. I guessed it was Gerald's fren. When I asked, Actually no. It's tt other ger's fren. Test me ya? B****. Disturb me only! But I'm too busy to b bothered with any of those. Just STOP disturbing me!
I passed my driving.. Yeah! Was happy yesterday morning... den my mood went down again. At this moment too.
WHY?
Exams.
I'm really scared this time. But I am not exactly concentrating on studyin as much as I wan/hope to. I feel so stupid. My mid sem grades are really bad. Distinction is nt tt hard to achieve. Just 70 marks & above. But I am no where near it. If I wan distinctions, I gt to score real well... very well... super well.. for the main exams! Sigh..
I pray for FULL concentration, FASTER understanding of my units & Hardworking"ness".
you make my life perfect-`
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
5:19 PM
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We seem ok now...
Funny ya?
I duno... But we r ok. He chose me still... Due to better future (more stable 1), parents like me better (much better *grins*) and love me more (nt sure how true is tt thou?).
He made his choice on Thurs... very sudden. I didnt wan to believe too. Wan to juz stay back n look out. His parents too.. we all juz kept quiet abt his choice. As the days passes.. till now, things r improving. He's treating me like b4 again.
His change was so sudden.. it scares me. Within 1 nite.. he told me he's deciding again. Whether to b with her or nt.. for days, he was so frustrated. Then, when I'm tryin to get over the whole matter, he out of sudden say choose me. Hmm....
I'm surprised by myself too.. How I could handle the Cheat. I was very hurt, wasnt it? Once he treated me well, I'm fine again. Am I so weak? Or do I really love this guy so much? *shrugs*
Wadever... at least it made me so much better in the mood to Study! Met some ppl to study Inorganic Chem on Mon. They studied so fast... Next tues paper, they're like done with the studyin and doing pass yr papers. =( I felt so slow n stupid. No.. I feel.. still feeling.
Juz ended, u can say, the last driving lesson juz now. Going for test tmr! The driving instructor makes me feel tt I'm going to die flat tmr! But it's the sun... Sun at 3pm here is the sun at 5pm in Sg! I couldnt see tt well... blinds my eye... n so damn pain. I didnt wan to tell her, coz I noe.. it sounds like an excuse. I need Sunnies!
Tmr is the test alrdy. I'm quite scared. But I feel tt I can make it.. hee. If the Examinar ask for left hand side parking.. then, hmmm.. we'll c wad happens. Hee.
All thanx to wat happened last week, I lost some weight. No appetite! But... i think i'm gettin it back again. More running!
Cal havent been home. Coz gt 2 proj to hand up today.. So lonely. Need dinner soon. I'm hungry!
This is a Sinful pair of Boots I bought.
I'm so Thankful tt U r here with me. *hugs*
you make my life perfect-`
Saturday, June 03, 2006
4:05 PM
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Free from the past.
You don't need to run away from the past. For it's already quickly receding behind you.
If you've had a wonderful and fulfilling past, it is now time to move forward. If you've had a difficult and troubling past, it is now time to move forward. Whatever the past may or may not have been, it is now over. Choose to not let it hold you back for any reason.
Are your thoughts filled with regret, resentment, sorrow or anger for what has already been? The sooner you let go and move on, the better your life will be. Cherish the past, take wisdom from the past, but don't let the past become your prison. Free yourself to move forward in a positive, fulfilling way.
If there's one thing you have learned from the past, it is that life is precious. Now is when you can fully realize and experience the precious life you are in.
-- Ralph Marston
I dunwan to feel watever I'm still feeling. Go for the best or the worse. Wad's happening? I'm still unsure and confuse. An answer remained unknown.
It's Study week alrdy... and I havent study anything still. Damn. I am so slacking and lazy. No mood. I need to Buck Up, Wake Up!!
I'm 3 more weeks to home. Tt's consoling... I simply cant wait!
you make my life perfect-`
Thursday, June 01, 2006
10:53 AM
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U know how things changes so fast. Twist & turns happens overnite. Tt Thursday.. it didnt make us stronger. I was wrong.. He lied. It's over.
They're together.
I'm hurt.
Pain grows in my heart.. I hope the pain will frow till a stage tt it dies off. I know it will. Just like how to roses blooms and dies.
I realised I havent been watering the roses for the past few mornings.. tt was over love. Like me... they r slowly dying off.
I have no mood to do anything at all. In my own world. Doing everything slowly. No strength nor feel. Only tt pain.
I know it'll b over.. this feeling. Somehow I will move on. But it is this period tt I have to get thru 1st. I am juz a Normal girl. Silly as I may sound.. I thought we could have a better future than this.. 1 towards the marriage.
This is a breakup. The part and parcel of life. A lost in my life. A period I have to go through...
you make my life perfect-`