Where do I start with now?
Since last entry.... Chifai coming. I think since then, I became more & more moody. Easily frustrated & simply no mood to blog or do anything much.
I guess... I didnt quite enjoy him being here. I felt that I made him bored too. When he arrived that Fri morning, I dropped 1 of my permanent contacts. Couldnt find it till today... Luckily, my new pair came yesterday. Was late to pick him. Brought him ard Bugis & Orchard. Saw Lin XiangPing. Really fair girl... even if she wasnt a Star, she would be 1 who turn heads.
Been raining so much. The next time I met him was on Sun nite for Sushi & Nite Safari.
Sushi time. My love for sushi shall nv end... & for Gerald too. ;)
I will keep holding on to U.
Chifai & me on MRT.
I think the stage looks really pretty.
Hot, sweaty & in need of his attention!
Didnt meet him everyday... I tried to. Meeting Xy & Ant is 1 of my best times here now.. Dinner at ChompChomp was great with the KTV session after on Tues nite.
ChompChomp!
Andy is 1 kind soul eh?
Brought him to Sentosa the next day.. Didnt go into the attractions with him thou.. May sound pretty mean to leave him alone in there. But the attractions cost too much for a frequent enter. While he enters the Underwater World & Dolphin Lagoon... me & Baby went to the beach to chill.
The Beachy Hours.
Getting ready for the show.
Looks like fire-works.
Didnt meet Chifai on his last day here... He left for KL on Fri morning & left me a sms abt Thankful for the pleasant trip he had in Singapore. Somehow... I felt guilty. Wasnt a gd enough host, eh? yea....
Fri was great! It was kinda a relief tt Chifai was gone. Coz I had my free time again. Was off shopping with Shir. But somehow, other than a pair of heels, I didnt quite wan to buy anything else. Future State was having 70% sales. Noticed a corset tube from there some time back when it was 50% sales. Hesistated for some time b4 buying. But hesitation was great. Coz the $39 top, I gt it for $11.70 now. But 2 pieces straight. I am seriously lake of any money to spend alrdy. Anymore shopping, I would need to declare bankrupt soon. Many new clothes I bought & un-worn. This is how girls are... or issit juz me??
Dear was off to meet frens on Sat. I didnt like it. Kinda reminds me of his past when he mentioned SecSch Mates. But I do trust him.. wan to be able to trust him always.
Ahh... I miss him. Thinking abt it, I gt 1mth & 1 week b4 I return to Perth again. Time flies... they really do. It's gd & bad. But this mth, I need it to move as slow as possible.
Sat.... practically home the whole day. Watching DVD. I'm so into the korean drama, "Ye Man Wang Fei" now. I think this is the 1st Korean drama which caught my attention. Heard of many more gd korean dramas now. But actually, I think, Jap looks better den Koreans. Bernerd gt the original full episodes of it. I only figured out how to make the subtitles appear today. Was pretty uncomfortable watching the drama during late afterNoon & onwards. The living room sofa was off for having a new set of cover on it. It's been with us for 21 yrs now.. since I was borned. It was previously on a greyish Velvet-looking skin. When moved into Hougang Ave 1 when I was 13, it was re-skined to a yellow cloth. Now.. it's gonna be skined to a mid-brown & slight maroon, kinda clothy/fur coating.
Anw, dinner was great on Sat. Fishball soup & 4kg worth of steamed flower crabs. Bernerd came. Xy & Ant came too... but was late coz Mama (xy's mum, My auntie) had her bday dinner out with the family. Mum made sago too... not sweet enough thou & I think, the portion's too much.
Sis went off to Perth to work on Sun morning. Will be in Aus for a week now... goin to Sydney next & last stop, Melbourne. She's always off to other countries for work. Ppl may see it as such a gd/fortunate thing to do for work. But thru her & Bernerd, dun think they quite enjoy it I guess. Ber will b gone to Holland for 2 weeks in April.
I didnt send sis off. Coz the nite b4, I slept at 5am. Ant & Xy stayed at my place. We were watching TV, chatting & went down for some prata again. My stomach was feeling unwell... so I didnt ate any. Call sis this morning to fix the drama's subtitles. Disturbed her again. I feel that... after she has a bf, I tend to feel neglected by her. Mayb I did the same thing to her too. The 1st day she was gone... I felt tt I miss her alrdy.
That morning, I woke up late. Suppose to send sis off & go to Gerald's place immediately. Going to JB with his family. They're off for their yearly praying kinda. Was playing with Xiaobai as usual... But an accident happened. I hugged him... my "eve" necklace gt his fur stucked in it. He struggled away. I tried to untangle it.. But he pulled harder. I heard him screamed and he gt free. He fur were on my pendant & Xb licked them. I was shocked & kept asking if he was ok. Of coz... he didnt ans me. I felt so bad.. I hid the necklace behind my shirt & apologised to him while giving him an endless hug. I was freaking guilty & Gerald kept disturbing me by playing the screams of Xb over & over again. I was so guilty, I cried. The journey down to JB... I kept thinking abt it. Hoping he was fine & all. Cant wait to get back to him tt nite. I was hopin he wont hold it agst me & ignore me. I am treating him like a human huh... But tt's coz I love this lil Whitey so much.
Oh... I rem reading a newspp article today. It was discussing whether man & woman can be just mutual gd frens. It was a man writer.
Summary: When woman thinks that a certain guy is only our gd fren & it is not possible for the male fren to ever have feelings for us ladies, we are wrong. A man can never be nice to a lady, share any of her inner thoughts without even once carrying a torch for her. A man would only appear as a gd fren, to cover up the fact that he is secretly having feelings for that girl.
A fren (male) of the writer quoted: "I dun think I could be very good frens with a woman who I didn't think of having sex with."
Cal is a gd example of a lady who doesnt believe that guys doing u a favour & showering u with gifts is having a motive other than being a gd fren. She doesnt quite believe or take in wad I say.. but of coz, that's her life. Mayb Dips & Clam would make her realise smth?
As for myself.... I realised more from this article too. How I used to think even when attached, a guy/girl can chat like how they were when both were single. And how I used to think when I could handle a boy/girl frenship like a girl/girl 1. Thinking my bf would accept. When he dun, he is being consevative. But actually, being Asians, we r definately more consevative. If a male cant be gd frens with a female unless carrying a torch for her. I shld understd now.. y bfs get so wary of their gf's gd guy-frens.
I need more time from my Baby... Feel that I'm seeing him lesser as compared to the 1st mth I came back. I'm no attention seeker. But coz... I dun see him as a 3D image more den 50% of the time in a yr. I miss u, Dear.