Monday, July 31, 2006
10:32 PM
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Life in Sg was so much better. I'm back in Perth now.
Many things happened while I was in Sg & I had great rejections abt being back in Perth... the 1st night here was so terrible. But I have come to accept it. But the last week b4 I came... it was the best of my 1mth hols back there.
The days in Singapore... 25 June to 24 July:
Clubbing with them after 4mths. But every1 seem to have tone down alrdy.
Baked a cake for Xiaoying's 21st! Looks nice huh.. but nt v nice la.. the mudcake too rich. heh!
Xy's 21st chalet! The acting Cool Ant & Xy.. but they look gd together. =)
Taken in his toilet. They've gt new shower curtains! But I just dun rem wat was the old 1. hahz
1 of our Fav... PepperLunch!
Poly girls' nite out. Dinner & Ktv.
Been a long while since I was out shopping with Sis..
I love taking Family photos when we go for outings. Every1 always looks so happy. Love tt "luo han guo" drink on the table. Drank like 3 cups for tt lunch tt day. NICE.
After ice-skating. I'm so bad at it. But he lovess ice-skating.
~LoVe~ Bckgrd: Jellyfish tank
The bckgrd looks like a poster! I like it..
These r Decorator Crabs. Interesting lil creatures.. Putting sea-sponges & corals on themselves to camouflage!
Sea Angels. Most interesting sea creature I've ever seen I think. They live in the Antartica. Sea like snails without shells n have tiny flabs of skin beside their longish bodies to help them move ard. Whic action.. looks like angels flying.
Sky ride. New attraction in Sentosa. Nothing much. But the go-kart game b4 tt was so fun!
The Zoo's new cover?
We went to the Zoo on the Thurs just b4 my flight on Mon (24.7.2006). I love these Otters. They stink alot but r so cute!
The white tiger's just behind my head! Look carefully... the sunlight camouflages him.
Went Ktv with them 2 nites b4 I left. Had a v bad sore throat. But all wans to go..Couldnt really sing, but I enjoyed too.
US in Ktv again. Love to hear him sing.
Last pic with Xaiobai b4 I left for Perth again. I love this lil' fluff to bits!
Just on the nite b4 I left....
you make my life perfect-`
Friday, July 14, 2006
12:19 AM
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K.... Wad's new?? Too much.
Since previous blog entry... bad things havent stop coming in. Exam results & abt Gerald esp. Exam results... BAD BAD BAD. Shall nt comment further... coz I dun even wan to think abt it!
As for Gerald... after his exams on Fri, I thought I could at last have more fun with him. End up, On Fri nite, he's been feeling feverish & we thought tt he could b fine by the end of the weekends. I accompanied him thru out. Then, I found some pimple/ bubbles looking pop-out stuff on his body. Asked his Mum on Sun nite.. she exclaims " They look like chicken pox!". Great... wad's next? When I could at last have juz tt lil bit of fun, 2 weeks fun, all gone in 1 nite & a sentence. He saw the Doc the next morning... n confirmed his "disease".
CRYS!
So... I've been bored. Real bored. Havent been out since Sun... after my shoppin trip with my Sis on Sat. But tt shopping was good anw. Made me feel gd. I LOVE SHOPPING. More shopping tmr n on Sat probably. Wan to do many things with Gerald... Now all cant. Only hope is tt he can get well by mid next week & we can go out. So... juz shopping for now.
I dread to go back to Perth. I dun like sch... coz I've gt no frens. U know how young kids dislike sch? N some love it so much. Frankly speaking, I do have frens. But I dont like ppl in sch mostly. Alot of hypocrites, fakes, pretends... back-stabbers? If u consider certain minor events. Ah.. kaisu ppl, super hardworking till nt helpful. Ppl who can do well but keep complaining tt they r going to fail. YESH! If u r 1 of the above mentioned, BIG SLAP from ME!
There r so much incidents tt happen to me there.. whic I did nt mention & did nt wan to tell any1 much abt it till Now. I thought I could get thru it. But I realised how much it affected me. I tried to blend in. Tried to get favour... but sincerely & being truthful. Having tt NAIVE thought tt U r nice to ppl, they too will b nice to u over time. But NO. There r juz 2 ppl I greatly thank for when I was in Perth.. they 2 helped me in studies, coping in sch. Jay from Kenya & Jean-paul from Seychelles. Nt always teaching me things thou. But when I am unsure abt certain sch work, they r always helping me with it. I was of coz very embarrassed. Esp towards Jay.. when he helped me so much with my lab reports. The other ppl who I ever sought help from, mainly Asians, they always gave me v brief ans. Expecting me to know wad they meant. But I think they forgt 1 thing... I am new to Curtin. New to the system. New to the country. I am to live here for the next 2 yrs. I came with nobody with me. But them, they all been in Perth or at least a yr or 2. They all have their family in Perth or bf/gf. Some1 close to them.. who they can go to anytime. But ME? I am totally new & alone.
Something they dun understd & duno how to feel to b left all alone in a foreign land. They might have been thru wad I am going thru now... but none was helpful. Esp the Asians. U know how terrible it is? When u thought u can find comfort in Asians.. coz we r the same race. But actually not! They r all to themselves & selfish. Those who help me most, r nt ppl I hanged out with the most. And they r nt my own race too. Yes... I believe in equallity in gender/race/religion/nationality. But I also feel tt ur own countryman, u will feel closer & more helpful to each other in a way.. since we r all away fr HOME? Tt thinking is all wrong. Facin the reality.. I am. Tt the world is realistic. People r selfish.
Nice ppl r force to b mean n wary of the surroundings. Due to the "realistic" world all of us have to face. So they cant surface at all. Me alone making this comment. But I know I have to b hypocritical too. BE NICE to some1 who gives me attitude all the time & I know is being hypocritical to me.
I dun dislike Perth. But I am nt enjoying my stay there. I thought my experience could b like my Sis' 2 yrs back.. or even better. But things turn out to b worse. Much worse. How much I feel liek giving up, I have to go on. Giving up, it's easy. But I would lose much more (money spent, the 1/4 sch life gone, my driving licence nt completed). If I dun give up, road ahead will b tough I know. But at least I wont lose tt much. I might b able to gain abit more.
What dun kill me, will make me stronger.
Next sem onwards... I have to make my point. I cant trust any1 so easily. Dun try to get into gd books with fake ppl.
Lecturers shall b my fren. Curtin shall b my 2nd hm in Perth. Books & studies & schwork shall b my playmate. Exams & results shall b my enemy. Coz I have to conquer it all!
you make my life perfect-`
Thursday, July 06, 2006
1:54 PM
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The past week... 1st in Sg, it's been a lil bored. Gerald havent got time for coz he need to study for exams this week. Out only on Mon & Tues, I was practically Staying hm & in his hm. But Fri was Xy's 21st bday & went club in dbl O again... after so so many months. The grp was quite boring this time. Every1 kinda split & not so fun n happening anymore. Sun was going out with his parents again. Like how it used to be. Went down to Qian Hu fish farm or smth. Caught those lil "longkang" fishes. It wasnt exactly tt fun & was the weather was so freaking hot. But at that moment, I know I was thinkin abt nth at all. Felt safe. Everything felt so much better than I was in Perth.
I seriously dont understd y I dun like being Perth so much. The place isnt tt bad... It's the ppl I guess. And... I dun like to b alone. As a kid, even at home, I would not like to spend time alone in a place. I'll be going back in slightly less than 2 weeks time. I dun wish for time to pass so soon.
Juz on Mon, I went down to Nicky's funeral. He passed away on July 1, 2006. His death did sort of affected me. My mood dropped on hearing the news. We used to be rather close. Then, 1day, we juz stopped contact. And I've nt contacted him for over a year alrdy. Since our graduation day in poly. Life is fragil isnt it....
Met the poly girls last nite. Went chijmes to eat & went down to ktv. 1 of the usual hang out place with them. It's still nice to chill out with them. I really like Sg so much more! My comfort zone... so so comfortable being here. Where I've gt every1 here, no worries abt being alone & all my Fav food. There's nth more I would ask for. Esp tt I've gt my Gerald here. Wad else could b better den having all ur Love 1s all gathered in the same place? I chose to leave... not knowing that it could b worse den I expected.
The exam results r coming out. I'm super super worry. Toking to Jean-paul, brings more bad news. He asked me to check the units tt I'll be taking next sem. Saying that the remaining units on tt list r those I failed or taking next sem. And, I've gt 2 passed units up there! Analytical and Inorganic Chem. Both I least expected to fail them. I think back abt the papers done, I seriously would not think tt I would fail them. No No~! I thought my Organic Chem was bad.. real bad. I wasnt even confident abt the exam pp. I duno... I may have to take sup pp for tt 2 units. I dun wish to... wad is happening?? Results r out on 12July, 2006. But email saying I have to take the sup pps, is just so wrong.
Tell me, What could be worse?? Life in Perth has yet to give me anything happy nor memoriable to look back into it.
Gerald is 1 of the main reasons y I love here even more. Without him, my days would be so bored & not as lively. I know he's with me.. we have a goal, a future to move on to. Being practical, we r both young. Things may not work the way we probably wans it to be. But as far as I am concerned, till now... we still have a future to work to.
If Uni doesnt work well for me, at least, I've gt another hope tt I'll have another pillar to lean on. My family... is the other part of the main reason y I would wan to b in the same country as them. Thou I dun tell them my problems, my worries, I know tt no matter wat, they too, will be by my side.
you make my life perfect-`