Kinda being a victim of some bad-mouthing/bad-stabbing incident. I'm not exactly sure did it happen.. how it happened.. or wat's happening.
I've gt so much to say last nite.. but currently, I'm lost for words.
There's a dislike to me from this other Singaporean ger.. it was obvious. I asked her abt it.. & yea.. she dislikes me. But after we talk it out, things seems ok. However, I see some difference b/t ppl ard. It's been over a mth alrdy .. i think. Since the 1st incident occured. Wat she disliked me abt was last sem's things... but wat took her so long to appear so unfriendly suddenly? But we look ok now at the same time.
It's scary! Coz u duno when u shld b wary.. take caution. Or when u shld just b real, knowing tt person's real too.
Suddenly, during yest's lecture, I look at the 3 singaporeans I know. 1 guy starting to show dislike for me? The other.. I hardly knew. Said "hi" to him b4 the lect (coz i am friendly!), but he looked reluctant to speak to me. Or to give even a smile back. Then, I know.. smth must have really happened. They all sat together... Birds of the same kind flock together. Tt was wat came to my mind after.
The other 2 guys probably do not know me enough to judge me. 1 of them make false acusations of me... whic any example he gave, does not concern him & was of wrong info. He ask me to "kua sei" & change my personality whic will nt b too late to do so.
-_-
Tt's ok actually... I mean, I like ppl telling me my faults rather than back-stab me behind. When my faults r told to me, if it's smth I shld change, I will. But mayb his approach of words, isnt tt nice/kind and prob, not accurate as well.
I did reflect on myself thou. Did I really do smth wrong? But y issit.. after 20+ yrs of being alive, this is the 1st time I met such things all at once. This dun happen to me in sg. As in.. the many frens I have. 90% Singaporeans. Why issit tt when I come here, all gang up agst me? A clan of anti-Evette has formed?
I was tokin to a Msian guy abt Sporeans. He told me tt in KL, if ppl know tt u r Sporean, a path will b open for u to walk. Not out of respect.. but of out "I dun wan to have anything to do with Sporeans." Dylan.. a sporean fren told me.. the feeling's mutual. Coz Sporeans dun like Msians too. I asked him why... he told me abt Msian ah bengs. He is actually catogorising a grp of ppl. Not the Msians in general. But the Msian guy.. call us "typical Sporeans". Whic is true.. thou I debated with him to prove tt Sporeans worth better than wat he mentioned.
Singaporeans... are actually not as nice as I thought. I reflected on myself as well... as compared to the other nationalities I have met in Perth.
Singaporeans:
- Self-centered.
- Hypocrite.
- Kaisu.
- Wary of ppl.. coz they 'eat' ppl, afraid tt others will 'eat' them too.
- Back-stabbers. They r prob everywhere.. but so common in Sg.
Those tt I have mentioned above, 3 of which.. are in me somehow. Even if it means just a lil in some suitation.
Issit the brought up? The society tt Sg is? The government & his education system? making every1 so competitive & selfish. If u dun wan to lose out.. u gt to win others & keeping the best for urself.
Wadever it is.. it's everywhere. But I hope the traits of "typical" Sporeans would not b a fixed thing. As in.. I hope this kind of phrasing for Sporeans would nt b a term for Sporean characteristics. Mayb when u become a victim.. it is then.. tt u'll c the ugly side of ppl.
P.S : Just merely a blog. No offence to any others.
*Cheers*