Thursday, July 06, 2006
1:54 PM
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The past week... 1st in Sg, it's been a lil bored. Gerald havent got time for coz he need to study for exams this week. Out only on Mon & Tues, I was practically Staying hm & in his hm. But Fri was Xy's 21st bday & went club in dbl O again... after so so many months. The grp was quite boring this time. Every1 kinda split & not so fun n happening anymore. Sun was going out with his parents again. Like how it used to be. Went down to Qian Hu fish farm or smth. Caught those lil "longkang" fishes. It wasnt exactly tt fun & was the weather was so freaking hot. But at that moment, I know I was thinkin abt nth at all. Felt safe. Everything felt so much better than I was in Perth.
I seriously dont understd y I dun like being Perth so much. The place isnt tt bad... It's the ppl I guess. And... I dun like to b alone. As a kid, even at home, I would not like to spend time alone in a place. I'll be going back in slightly less than 2 weeks time. I dun wish for time to pass so soon.
Juz on Mon, I went down to Nicky's funeral. He passed away on July 1, 2006. His death did sort of affected me. My mood dropped on hearing the news. We used to be rather close. Then, 1day, we juz stopped contact. And I've nt contacted him for over a year alrdy. Since our graduation day in poly. Life is fragil isnt it....
Met the poly girls last nite. Went chijmes to eat & went down to ktv. 1 of the usual hang out place with them. It's still nice to chill out with them. I really like Sg so much more! My comfort zone... so so comfortable being here. Where I've gt every1 here, no worries abt being alone & all my Fav food. There's nth more I would ask for. Esp tt I've gt my Gerald here. Wad else could b better den having all ur Love 1s all gathered in the same place? I chose to leave... not knowing that it could b worse den I expected.
The exam results r coming out. I'm super super worry. Toking to Jean-paul, brings more bad news. He asked me to check the units tt I'll be taking next sem. Saying that the remaining units on tt list r those I failed or taking next sem. And, I've gt 2 passed units up there! Analytical and Inorganic Chem. Both I least expected to fail them. I think back abt the papers done, I seriously would not think tt I would fail them. No No~! I thought my Organic Chem was bad.. real bad. I wasnt even confident abt the exam pp. I duno... I may have to take sup pp for tt 2 units. I dun wish to... wad is happening?? Results r out on 12July, 2006. But email saying I have to take the sup pps, is just so wrong.
Tell me, What could be worse?? Life in Perth has yet to give me anything happy nor memoriable to look back into it.
Gerald is 1 of the main reasons y I love here even more. Without him, my days would be so bored & not as lively. I know he's with me.. we have a goal, a future to move on to. Being practical, we r both young. Things may not work the way we probably wans it to be. But as far as I am concerned, till now... we still have a future to work to.
If Uni doesnt work well for me, at least, I've gt another hope tt I'll have another pillar to lean on. My family... is the other part of the main reason y I would wan to b in the same country as them. Thou I dun tell them my problems, my worries, I know tt no matter wat, they too, will be by my side.
you make my life perfect-`