Monday, April 17, 2006
11:54 PM
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Ever since Gd Friday, I seriously havent been studying. Was slackin at home for Fri, Sun & Mon.. other than goin for my drivin lessons. Sat.. went out with a bunch of girls. It did made me feel better n less lonely. Previously.. I guess I just had to find the correct ppl to clique ard with.
Over the weekends, I did think abt some stuff. Like... how real ppl were.. wat I have actually seen n heard, r they the truth to wat they shows... who can I really trust...
When u actually look at things on both sides, the other side whic u didnt c b4, wasnt exactly as bad as u thought initially. It's weird, really. It's scary.
Today, Tanya, my drivin instructor, told me tt I'm learnt all tt I shld noe alrdy. Now I'm just left with more practising. I'm glad! Coz I may b able to do my drivin test by early June.. I hope.
Tmr I dun think I can study still. Gt to do groceries shopping, pay the for the dive course and go for movies with Timo n Cal. We havent been to the movies for a long time alrdy. The last time was the 1st week when we were here... when my parents were still here.
It's so cold nowadays. 9 degrees currently... my feet r freezing. Luckily, Gerald left me his long pants when he left. He left me 1 of his long sleeve tops too.. so I can wear them to sleep. I miss U!
The days r passing quite fast. But when I look back, it's only Monday. So it's oso not tt fast after all. When it gets so cold, n quiet, I really miss him badly. Long dist rship r really not easy. Not juz the dist n feel for each other tt may cause us to drift. But oso the "nt able to c each other" feeling. If there is no webcam, I dun think we MAY even last.. it'll b a "we wont last". Coz we cant c each other, I make it a point tt he must tok to me every nite. Tt's nt too demandin rite... at least for the rest of the days.. till weeks n mths, he can always do watever he likes. Just tt he gt to b hm at nite to tok to me.. or in the morning when he gt no sch.
Sis is flyin off again in the morning. Wish tt she has a safe flight. She's off to Shenzhen for work again. This time.. prob just a week. She's like used to being alone... ever since she went to QUT to study. I cant b lonely. dun like tt feeling... but Sis been doin tt prob for yrs alrdy. I noe she dun like it. But now tt I'm nt ard, I guess... she's even more lonely. But when I was hm, I dun spend much time with her too.. coz I'm out so much. I miss Sis n Xy too... Wan to go swim, shop n watch movies with them. We havent been doin tt for a long time alrdy...
Come on... I still MISSES HM ALOT!!!
you make my life perfect-`