Saturday, January 21, 2006
6:25 PM
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Woke up by the alarm again this morning. This time, woke up not for work. But to go down to the agency for students going overseas to study. It's actually an agency opened by a poly schmate of mine. Justin's parents. My Sis was under the same agency 4 yrs back den. And such coincedence.. for me to know the son of the boss too.
Everything was very much settled by this morning. Except.. prob my student visa.. whic will b doen for me by the agency. And my medical checkup. Whic i have to choose a date later on.
The Boss-tress of the agency said "Once y sign these 2 documents, u'll be confirmed in going down to study on 13Feb." I took a moment to read every detail on the pieces of paper. So soon. After this weekend, i'll only be left with 2 more weekends to go. Anxious, worried, excited, damn glad... n sad too. Felt nearly everything tt i could feel. Even anger too... in the beginning.. when i couldnt get exemption for Chemical Engineering. Due to my bad bad results. I dun wan to b studyin all 4 yrs on it juz to obtain a degree on tt... tt's y i changed course. Pissed!
But luckily, I heard tt i can actually be back on Chemical Engineering for my Masters.
If i do well for my Bachelor in Chem, i can even get exemption n do like.. 1 to 1.5 yrs to obtain my Masters in Chemical Engineering. I think tt's Cool too.. hah.
Was waiting for his call again. Called him. Know tt he's on the line with some1. Starhub to starhub, u will actually get this "call waiting" msg when the other party is on the line. I know who he's talking to. Sad.. anxoius again.. coz i was only waiting for the outcome.. since last nite.. sumthing was said n may happen.
But when i finally met him, he told me tt everything between him n her is fine again. Shit.. wad disappointment again. I think nobody can understd wad i'm talkin abt.. prob juz Shirley. I'm just so so so disappointment. I mean... i am just allowing myself to get used to it. Sumtimes.. made me feel so much like i'm played ard. But.. no choice. Only got myself to blame. I Love Him. I am really happy with him. But I know it's going to end. Deceiving myself now again.. call me a Stupid ger! =)
Wad's going to happen in the end.. It's obvious. But there's this little light of hope tt something gd may come out from it. Anyways. every1 ard him.. knowing his situtaion. all supports Me. Hah.. Wad can I say. Even if in the end, I'm not the chosen 1, I still feels proud. ;)
My time left is so limited. I wan to make full use of my every moment with U. Do everything I can.. so I will not have any have any regrets when I leave.
Dream like I never dream before. Love like I never loved before. Feel n do the way I wan things to be.
Have PEACE...
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So Loved... Zen 19.1.2006
you make my life perfect-`